I am back

8 Jan

Editors note:

In late November I was diagnosed with Metastatic Cancer in the Lung.  It hit my family like an anvil, as I was only 5 months out of treatment for my original breast cancer.  I shut down for the last weeks of 2012.  I had to wrap my mind around this diagnosis, and how it would inevitably change my life and those around me.  Fortunately my “anchors” stepped up, held my hand, and guided me through the numbing pain and sadness.  For that I am grateful because now, I am back.  Sometimes, we need the time to grieve, plan…and move forward.  Thank you for your patience!

 

Pink Ink…

“Even when we can’t see, we know how to feed ourselves.  Even when the way isn’t clear, the heart still pumps.  Even when afraid, the air of everything enters and leaves the lungs.  Even when clouds grow thick, the sun still pours its light earthward.” -Mark Nepo

During my darkest days, one of my closest friends sent me The Book of Awakening by Mark Nepo.  It is a book of daily affirmations, and lessons on how to be present in your life.  For about five minutes I was skeptical.  But I quickly realized that this was the time that I needed to be open and needed to live…in the present.  Today’s lesson reminded me that “we have inner reflexes that keep us alive, deep impulses of being and aliveness that work beneath the hardships we are struggling with.”  It reminded me that even through this current struggle, my natural instinct is to live!

I have forced myself over these last few weeks to live everyday.  There have been times that have been tough.  But finally, there have been days that I have forgotten that I have cancer…again.

I laugh. I love. I live.

 

My friends…I am back!

4 Responses to “I am back”

  1. Renee Pilot January 8, 2013 at 10:29 AM #

    I’m glad you are back on the blog! You have always been around (whether physically or spiritually). Love you!

  2. Dee C. January 8, 2013 at 5:46 PM #

    Happy to have you back, Barb! You don’t know how much you have helped all of us in our awareness of good health and breast cancer. I just received a negative biopsy thanks to your encouragement and information about breast health. I am going to work on loosing weight next. If you and my daughter met the challenge of breast cancer, I can loose this weight. Happy New Year! Dee C.

  3. Marsha (Foulks) Griggs January 9, 2013 at 5:36 PM #

    Barbra I am sending you love from Texas. I marvel at the grace and fortitude with which you have embarked upon your courageous battle.

  4. K Lubeck January 17, 2013 at 2:08 PM #

    I am thinking of you, Barbra, and sending you positive vibes!!
    Love,
    Karen

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